I love Christmas! I got a bag and belt and some moolah from my parents and a ZARA shirt and Alanis CD from babuy! Yihaaa! I really love xmas! Not just because of the gifts and moolah im getting but it’s the time of the year where im always reminded that im soo lucky for having a not-so-perfect-yet-close-to-being-one family. Hu cares if there are times that we’re fighting? Hehe it’s but natural. Life has been rude and rough to me this past few months but I still have my family to thank for. They’ve always been there for me. What better way to celebrate Christmas but with your le famille?

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Next week…it’s gonna be year 2006 already, year of the dog. However, I don’t feel it yet. As if im stuck in the trance of 2005. stuck in the chaos and sadness of this year where a lot and I mean a lot of things happened. Good start but bad end. Now it makes me restless cuz I don’t know what lies ahead for the next year. Someone liberate me please! Im getting crazy. What’s life gonna be? Im scared that I may be a failure again. I feel ive done nothing to make my parents proud. Ive just been a humiliation…a disappointment. They’ve given me everything yet I haven’t given them anything in return. All I want this coming year is to find my purpose in life…live it and make my parents proud of me.

I guess I have to make a list of my new year’s resolution and my goals..uhm…lemme think..

1> lose weight
2> be miss overconfident no more
3> be determined!
4> Work abroad!
5> Focus
6> …and to sum it all up…BE A BETTER PERSON! Period.

Im just wishing for the best this coming year. They say im lucky for having great people around me…hellyeah im lucky! I don’t wanna lose em. I just look forward for another year with the people I really really love and care about!

I don’t know what else to say. I feel fulfilled yet empty. Isn’t that ironic? I feel fulfilled because im happy but I feel empty cuz I felt ive been worthless this year. Whatever. Life goes on.