i really admire people hu can actually make the right decisions for themselves. i am a risk taker i can say but im scared to death. my mind know how to work but emotionally..it;s making me sick!

maybe i really am just a chicken shit! pretending to be strong-willed and all that when in fact im juz like a newborn baby hu seems so helpless.

lots of dreams...so scared to take the risk...im scared of failing. im scared of rejection. haaay...

i miss being a kid. when everything seems so carefree and i need not to worry about life. i juz rant about playing or getting the toys i want. sheez..

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a while ago...me and my mom went out instead of attending the interview thingy at starbux g4...jt said PSRC wanted me so bad to come. and they even want me to model for their apparel. owel...i dont know. :)

life..so full of surprises! ul never know when ul get tired of something and begin having a new dream! :)

but should keep me going? honestly, i dont know the answer.