owel, i feel weird today...since tuesday i think. or monday. i dont know. i feel sad. basta i cnt explain it. i was reading my past journals and i realized...ive changed. basta. i write differently. my perceptions are much different. i feel uncertain right now. as if i lost myself and i dont know what my priorities are. i dont know myself anymore. i dont have goals. im such an introvert. i rejected meeting frnds.

...i miss my life!

i envy people managing their lives perfectly. not losing anything or anyone in one way or another. *sigh* this is making me crazy. maybe i need to get out of the city? or better yet the country? start a new life. maybe soon. after the board exams. but what am i to leave? a huge part of me. im going crazy right now thinking..God help me.

my life...how do i get it back?