happy 23 monthsary babuy...1 month to go...then we're 2! :)

i talked to sup cris at like 5a a while ago. i told him my plans..me..leaving the job and doing other things. i really appreciate all his words of wisdom. he's more than a sup to us..he's our kabarkada. sheez..but the moment i talked to him, i must admit..it just made me more confused. he wants me not to quit the job and do all the things i wanna do at the same time. he's right about being young and doing a lot of things. but i dont think i can do it. although it opens more windows to the future..i can't. maybe i'll end up being an old maid who has a lot of money but doesnt know how to live life! i am a slave for life. im a junkie who doesnt care so much about plans and time..i live each day as if tomorrow i'll die...i dont know..im really confused!

this isnt such a happy day. *sad*

apr 9

saturday...last day of work and im freeee! owel, i was supposed to go home immediately after work but my team8s kidnapped me..literally! and so..i surrendered! they won! we went to glo! eating and shopping! the best combo..and dental too! haha! wala nmn! =p me, jing, abby and aiza..i had loads of fun! im starting to miss them...kht nde pako umaalis. too bad ava and joan didnt make it. asuuus! hehe. new havaianas flips! weee! nice one jinggay! haha. more plans..baguio..pig out...parteeh..owel..now im sad. :( but il still see you guys right? hehe yak drama. tagal pa nmn. we still had a lot of time. kaya lng namuv na sched namin ni abby..pro ayos lng dba? hehe.

i was sad pro at least ayos na. :) thanks to my l0vely teamm8s for keepin me sane! haha.

lovin babuy at it's best..

today..

what else is new? home alone mode... but it's kinda different today cuz i dont need to stress myself thinking about thesis. yahoo..it's over! im back to being a sunday bum. hehe. pro wala lng...

i was reading jimi's blog a while ago. i kinda felt the same. i guess finishing a bowl if ice cream and mac salad is making me insane. haha. pro seryoso..im asking myself..how gud i am at keeping relationships? not only w/ love but w/ friends and family? im beginning to realize that im not myself anymore. i guess babuy's right. ive changed. im the sweet girl...always there. but what now? i think im so far away from everybody else. i wasnt able to attend tin's grad dinner party, i didnt come at tia kat's despidida, i forgot greeting gorio on his bday, i dont reply that much to text messages, i dont spend much time w/ babuy, im always asleep..i dont bond w/ mom and dad that often anymore. where's my life? where's ice? haaay..this is bothering me. the more i work the more i lose my life. maybe it's really better quitting the job. at least i'll have my life back. as much as i want to accomplish more and more things in my life, i can't live like this. i told u im a slave for life..! i want to enjoy each moment not having to sacrifice the people around me. im filing my resignation letter tom. and i'll study for the board and teach! (naks!) i cnt wait...